Horror Films, Murder Mysteries, Crime Thrillers, and Insomnia – Part 2

I can’t watch horror films, but I love watching murder mysteries, crime thrillers, and detective shows. The problem is that after watching these, I can’t sleep due to fear…

Would you make fun of me if I said a reality TV program kept me awake for 3 whole nights. This was a very serious event for me which induced fear and insomnia.

Crime Scene is a Korean reality detective program similar in a way to the game Mafia which I absolutely love. Technically there is a murderer, and each person is given a character. The crime scene is provided with rooms and areas relating to each character. The members have to figure out who the actual murderer is by picking up clues and information from the crime scene and the relative rooms provided.

Now the storyline of watching Crime Scene and the respective inability to sleep go hand in hand. I watched 2 whole seasons in 2 days which I would gloat is a talent. And started the 3rd season on day 3. Initially on day 1, I only had mild sleeping difficulties, so I continued watching. Days 2, 3, and 4 were the worst. I was genuinely asking the sun to show up earlier.

At night I would pray everyone else would sleep late so there would be some security around the house. I was literally shaking in bed and the blanket covered my body fully yet failed to protect me mentally. My heart was palpitating vigorously, and my eyes would dart at every little sound ensuring my heart beats were alone. Although the freezing cold blanketed the city, sweat coated my skin. For someone who could never fall asleep due to the tiniest bit of light, I had to keep my lamp on the whole night to feel the tiniest bit of relief. The light in the room outside remained turned on to convince me that there was some life outside. Needless to say, these were some of the worst nights of imaginary fear for me.

Anyway, I promised myself that I would never watch Crime Scene again. Of course, the temptation to watch it was intensely high because aside from the fear, I absolutely loved it. So, every time I thought I would watch something to relax, my heart was whispering to me to put on Crime Scene. At the same time my mind was bringing up pitiful memories of my sleep deprivation and substantial fear. Eventually I recently caved and watched the remainder of season 3 and the Crime Scene Returns season. I convinced myself that I would be fine at night, and I believe I might have gotten over my fear because I no longer had sleeping difficulty. Of course, I was still terrified when I was home alone but that is natural.

I am now eagerly waiting for a new season.

Written with sincerity,

Me.